the perks of being a wallflower

"So this is my life.  And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

"I have finished To Kill A Mockingbird.  It is now my favourite book of all time, but then again, I always think that until I read another book."

"I thought that in those movies and television shows when they talk about having a coffee break that they should have a masturbation break.  But then again, I think this would decrease productivity."

"And I wonder if anyone is really happy.  I hope they are.  I really hope they are."

"We accept the love we think we deserve."

"I feel infinite."

"He's a wallflower."

"You see things.  You keep quiet about them.  And you understand."

"Lights on buildings and everything that makes you wonder."

"Sam sat down and started laughing.  Patrick started laughing.  I started laughing.  And in that moment, I swear we were infinite." 

"I just listened to the music, and breathed in the day, and remembered things.  Things like walking around the neighborhood and looking at the houses and the lawns and the colourful trees and having that be enough."

"Patrick actually used to be popular before Sam bought him some good music."

"I have decided that maybe I want to write when I grow up.  I just don't know what I would write."

"I am really in love with Sam, and it hurts very much."

"I just hope I remember to tell my kids that they are as happy as I look in my old photographs.  And I hope that they believe me."

"I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy.  I hope that they feel it's enough.  I really do because they've made me happy  And I'm only one person."

"And she kissed me.  It was the kind of kiss that I could never tell my friends about out loud.  It was the kind of kiss that made me know that I was never so happy in my whole life."

"I also called pizza crust 'pizza bones'.  I don't know why I'm telling you this."

"It's like when you are excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them.  And other times you see the same couple, and they make you so mad.  And all you want is to always feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means that you're happy, too."

"I just remembered what made me think of all this.  I'm going to write it down because maybe if I do I won't have to think about it.  And I won't get upset.  But the thing is that I can hear Sam and Craig having sex, and for the first time in my life, I understand the end of that poem."

"And I never wanted to.  You have to believe me."

more to be added sometime...